Its interesting as humans how a lot of the times we feel weakness while only seeing others’ strength. We compare ourselves and tear ourselves down for what we cannot do. I was making a video for this week’s “10 Days of Gratitude Challenge” which was supposed to include a flow with crow, headstand, back to crow, jumpback, lower down to chaturanga, up-dog, then down dog. By the time I was ready to film I had been through almost two hours of yoga and was just… tired. Trying to make the video I ended up having to switch my flow to exclude the headstand because my body just wasn’t there anymore in the strength department.
I was disappointed because I’ve never felt better in headstand than I have lately, but you really can’t fake a yoga flow video. Then I thought about it more and realized I needed to appreciate the strength that I had put out already that day, even if it wasn’t recorded to show and inspire other people. Over the course of my time with yoga I have felt the ideas of strength and weakness trade places for me in moments like these. I could feel my mind and body leveling out to find quiet strength, but I’m now more aware of other’s weaknesses. That would have used to make me feel stronger- that little vindictive part of me that felt better about myself because I could do something someone else couldn’t. Yoga has showed me the truth in becoming humble. Knowing each day is different and strength is a journey, not something defined in a pose or video. Now instead of one-upping myself off someone’s weakness, I’m aware of it but want to help them find their own strength too. I want to share my yoga journey with others and I know they will help me in my moments of weakness too.